To get real with God involves getting real about ourselves. We need God's Spirit to help us: to cut through to the raw honesty of our lives and the consequences of how we've lived. I usually cry at confession before the eucharist, week by week, even though I know God forgives me. I just do. I think God has brought me through judgment and fire, and it's just part of who I am. I have often been selfish and independent of God, and God chooses to remind me that I come before Him with nothing, and that's the raw truth of my relationship. What I have is what God gives me. I am like the woman in Isaiah 4:1-4 and Hosea 11:1-11 whose sinfulness brings her to destitution and moral poverty, and I pray that I may be His, be called by His name. And I am.